《落伍的文青》
闯进我第一篇小说的女主角是任方圆。
任方圆和我同一天来印刷厂报到。同样是退休顶职，来自郊县，紧挨着五河的六合。一开始，我俩自觉矮人一等而同病相怜。等到在夜大中文班不期而遇，顿时惺惺相惜。当我得知任方圆还会围棋时，简直高山流水相见恨晚。
其实，要说江城老土地，我才是真正当之无愧。我爷爷、奶奶，祖宗百代都是江城人。爷爷当年在江城开茶馆。半个世纪前，江城有一场举世罕见的浩劫，爷爷就在那一天不见踪影。
河中流淌着一爿又一爿破衣烂衫，每一片破布都浸着血渍；马路上坍塌着一堆又一堆废墟，每一堆废墟都掩埋着一个温馨的家庭；桥堍下交迭着一沓又一沓鞋子，每一双鞋子都记录着一个活生生的魂灵。满世界都是令人作呕的血腥味，满世界都飞舞着枯焦的灰末，象一只只驮满冤屈的黑蝴蝶……
奶奶抱着我爹，在街上急急地走。原本讲好躲出城去，爷爷只说打个招呼就回来。怎就不见影呢？
找不着爷爷我还活着干啥？奶奶当时想。事后，她却很有点后怕：
“我死了也就罢了，但许家的根呢？死了一个，不能死了一脉！”
奶奶那年二十才出头，左眼下有一块红色的胎记，就象老是有斑斑血水，从眼角淌下来。永远淌不完，永远擦不掉。奶奶看上去比实际年龄要大得多，也比实际的长相要丑得多，加上脸上还有意抹了锅灰。
茶馆已成废墟，中间一个好大的坑，像是通往地狱的黑洞。
奶奶高一脚低一脚到处搜寻。每一块断砖碎瓦，都像一个个蓬头灰脸的惊魂。奶奶辨认着熟悉的印记。她什么也没发现。
就在那一瞬间，奶奶突然明白爷爷再也不会回来了！就象冥冥中有人提醒她一样，奶奶变得从未有过的害怕。一股强烈的求生欲望，使她搂紧了怀中的我爹，发疯似地穿街过巷，向城外逃去。
在仓惶躲闪的奔波中，奶奶居然在死尸堆里，救出了一个伤兵。
“他的背影，像极了你爷爷，简直一模一样！”
在往后的几十年岁月中，奶奶经常念叨。 我不知道奶奶是怎么想的，莫非找不到爷爷，她想把这伤兵，给我爹当后爹？
“他是个打鬼子的，我能看出来。”奶奶说，“他叫祭城，就是祭奠这座城市。是他告诉我的。他还得去打鬼子。他当然应该去。”
伤兵跟着奶奶一直摸到城外，郑重其事地向奶奶敬了个军礼：
“大姐，打完鬼子，我再来找你！”
说完，匆匆消失在夜幕中。
奶奶就这样抱着我爹，逃难到了八十里外的乡下。
爹在成年后的一九五八年又进了省城。爹却没在城里娶媳妇，是因为奶奶不愿回城来。爹要在乡下找一个本份的女子，好照顾奶奶。
奶奶在每年的这一天，要来一次江城祭奠爷爷。奶奶眼中的江城，哪怕过去了半个多世纪，依然是满目废墟和满耳朵鬼魂的呼喊。她怀念着死去的冤鬼，却不愿意和鬼魂住在一个城里。
“鬼气太重，小辈长不旺。”这是奶奶的至理名言。
奶奶能讲一口道地的江城官话。老爹的话，多少有一些抹不去的五河口音。一代不如一代，我的语言，不光烙有乡下泥土的印奶奶能讲一口道地的江城官话。老爹的话，多少有一些抹不去的五河口音。一代不如一代，我的语言，不光烙有乡下泥土的印记，而且躲躲闪闪。一半是自卑，一半是畸形的自尊。另有背面的一大半，是由各种各样阴差阳错的屈辱，熏腌成的忌恨。
自从进了省城，也许怕露馅，我很少在生人面前讲话。
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